Looking inside the mind of a killer

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It’s not like I didn’t have enough to do this week but when I saw a link to “Full Text of Gym Killer’s Blog” blog on nypost.com, I couldn’t resist clicking on to get inside George Sodini’s head. Anyone who really knows me knows how fascinated I am with crime, especially murder. Here was the chance to peek inside the sick mind of a mass murderer.

Sure, I had heard bits and pieces about his blog on television but knew I wasn’t being told enough. I didn’t want the sanitized version. Give it all to me. And boy did I get it. From reading the blog, it’s a wonder that George Sodini didn’t go postal on a group of black men. He took the punk way out and opened fire on females in an exercise class at an L.A. Fitness gym in Pittsburgh.

In case you’ve been too busy to read George’s blog, here’s how it begins:

George Sodini

Age 48.

DOB 9/30/1960

DOD 8/4/2009

5-10, 155 lbs.

Never married.

Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania USA

Me

Why do this?? To young girls? Just read below. I kept a running log that includes my thoughts and actions, after I saw this project was going to drag on.

November 5, 2008:

Planned to do this in the summer but figure to stick around to see the election outcome. This particular one got so much attention and I was just curious. Not like I give a flying fcuk who won, since this exit plan was already planned. Good luck to Obama! He will be successful. The liberal media LOVES him. Amerika has chosen The Black Man. Good! In light of this I got ideas outside of Obama’s plans for the economy and such. Here it is: Every black man should get a young white girl hoe to hone up on. Kinda a reverse indentured servitude thing. Long ago, many a older white male landowner had a young Negro wench girl for his desires. Bout’ time tables are turned on that shit. Besides, dem young white hoez dig da bruthrs! LOL. More so than they dig the white dudes! Every daddy know when he sends his little girl to college, she be bangin a bruthr real good. I saw it. “Not my little girl”, daddy says! (Yeah right!!) Black dudes have thier choice of best white hoez. You do the math, there are enough young white so all the brothers can each have one for 3 or 6 months or so.

It made me think back to a conversation I had with a 40ish- or 50ish-year-old white man while we sat next to each other in the first class cabin of an American Airlines flight about 15 or 18 years ago. Our conversation turned to race and racism. He opened up and told me that his greatest fear was that his daughter (presumably white) would bring a black man home with her one day. He had nothing against black people, of course. As long as they didn’t date his daughter. None of that Guess Who’s Coming to Dinner stuff at his house .

Well from what George wrote: there’s a whole lot of knockin’ boots going on between Black men and Daddy’s little girls than Daddy knows — or at least wants to believe.

As we now know, George couldn’t get a date and that’s why he was mad at women. I’m not sure if he blamed Black men in part for that or commended them for getting theirs from white women since he wasn’t. According to his blog, he hadn’t had sex since July 1990. He wrote that a woman named Lee Ann Valdiserri had his baby in 1991 but he hasn’t seen the woman since four months into it (the pregnancy, I presume). He had plenty of other issues too with his mother, brother and others.

It made for interesting reading, although I’m sure Lee Ann doesn’t think so. I do wonder if anyone read George’s blog and if so did anyone try to get help for him or let authorities know about the nut case that was about to explode. He obviously had been thinking about doing this for a year. Obama might have saved the lives of some women by running for President. Crazy George (as one of his websites was called) might have taken his duffel bag full of guns to a gym last August instead. Maybe one of the three women killed by him wouldn’t have been there a year ago.

I usually work out at the gym 5 or 6 days a week but haven’t stepped foot inside my gym since hearing about this tragedy on Tuesday. Am I scared, knowing that my fitness center doesn’t enforce its “no gym bags on the equipment floor” policy? No. Just lazy. And I can’t blame crazy George for that.